Wednesday, November 5, 2014

Quod me nutrit me etiam destruit me

***This is my second post of a short story written by me. I wrote it a year ago I believe, but never found the inspiration to post it. I have been very bad at updating my blog ever since I have gotten into the work stream and I need a gem of a post to get that energy to write it down no matter what, else I just let it be on piece of paper. Sad.
However my quest to write something will keep on going until I have written to my heart's content. And I want to thank you, yes you, for taking out time to read through my posts. Appreciate it. - Harshal

And now the short story, hope you like it.

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“The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for.” - Bob Marley


The first flake of snow hits his face as the wind blows away the remnants of a dying fire. He shivers and grab to his torn jacket harder. The night is cold and winter is already here. He looks up to the sky and wonders if his existence even matters. Whether tonight will be his last night and he finally will be able to close his eyes peacefully, not afraid of the night ahead anymore. He closes his eyes and wishes "Please let this be the night". A tear drop rushes down touching his lip and creating a nice puddle in the fresh snow on the ground. He shakes the logs to keep alive the dying fire but like a ghost it vanishes into a smoky cloud. He closes his eyes and pleads.

He wakes up with a shudder. 'Am I dead'. He hears a faint yelp at a distance. He ignores it. 'Guess not'. He hears a pleading yelp again. Is it a kid trapped in the snow? He has no strength but the plead strikes his heart sounding so familiar. How can he ignore it. He travels towards the sound with the wind pushing him back at each step. But he paddles through the harsh winds determined to reach the source of the pleading yelps.

He finds it half buried in fallen snow from a house gutter, a pure white labrador pup. It looks at him with glee and gives out a half cry half bark. He digs it out, the snow painfully numbing his hands at every effort. It jumps up to his leg, free, with it's tail now wagging. "Go now". "Go home". He turns around walking back to his nothingness. And it follows him. "Shoo. I have nothing for you." But it can barely understand what his savior is warning. It just wags its tail and sticks his tongue out. And they both walk into the white oblivion. Together.

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Days pass by. It has a name now. Shadow. Seems befitting as it follows him everywhere. He puts out the bowel and shakes it. The streets are unkind. But atleast at the end of the day he has bread to share with someone. He used to talk to himself. Now he talks to Shadow. Shadow relishes the bread hungrily as his savior talks to him about his past. "Somewhere in there I went wrong." Shadow smacks his lips and barks happily at him eying at his piece of bread. He sees the hunger in Shadow's eye and throws at hime his share. "You go ahead."

Days turn into week. Weeks turn into months. Shadow follows him everywhere though disappears randomly and is found playfully chasing neighborhood dogs or eating thrown out food from bins in solitary. Shadow plays with him nibbling at his tattered clothes and eats with him. Time passes by faster for him with Shadow around. Whatever he earns from begging is shared by both equally, though Shadow's growing hunger makes him go hungry at times. But he has found hope and happiness in Shadow. He no longer pleads for the final night. He awaits the morning waking up to it licking his face. He feels pain in his body last few days but Shadow bouncing around, tail wagging makes him forget the pins and needles going across his body as he sets off with his bowel.

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The night is very cold. He shivers and shudders. Shadow is out again. He tries to grab on to his ragged shirt. His feet are cold. His breathing becomes heavy as his chest refuses to expand and contract. 'Is my body giving up on me.' He pants, breathless, his hands burying deep in his chest as he starts getting dizzy. He lets out a whisper 'Shaa...' his whisper forming a familiar smoky cloud as it disappears into the night. His body goes limp.

Shadow barks happily from a distance informing it's arrival. Wags its tail and goes licks him in the face expecting his dinner share. Shadow nudges him, barks at him but he won't move. Shadow's eyes fall upon the protruding piece of bread in his closed right hand. It bites, trying to release the bread from the grip. Shadow bites at his finger to open the grip, blood trickling from the cold hand. The grip loosens and the bread piece falls on the ground. Shadow hungrily finishes of the bread, gives a angry bark at him as if to say 'You wanted it to yourself, didn't you.' Shadow nudges him again, but the cold body won't move.

It looks at him, moves closer to him, lifts it's leg and pees. Giving out a final bark, it turns around and walks away. In to the white oblivion. Alone.

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Harshal


Sunday, September 16, 2012

Ayrton Senna: The Greatest F1 Driver Ever.


Whenever I talk about racing, the first lines that come to me are:

"Focus. Speed. I am Speed. One winner, forty-two losers. I eat losers for breakfast. Breakfast? Maybe I should have had breakfast? No, no, no, focus. Speed. Faster than fast, quicker than quick. I am Lightning."
This quote is from an amazing animated movie, Cars. 

Most people will say Michael Schumacher is the best F1 driver. And they would be right, if you only look at the stats. 7-time world champion=world's greatest driver.

But actually, comparing overall they are dead wrong about Schumacher being the best. There existed and will always exist, a racing god, a forgotten hero, a legend. Ayrton Senna.


Faster than any other driver of his era, as his three world titles and 41 grand prix wins proved, Senna also had a ruthless streak like no other.

Among true racing fans, Ayrton Senna holds the top spot, his skill and nerve allowed him to do things on the track that no one had seen before or since. And among those true racing fans, there are people, a much smaller group who consider him a villain, a danger because of his single-mindedness and overpowering desire to win.

Mostly because of his controversial crashes with his arch rival, Alain Prost. Senna-Prost participated in one of the most intense and acrimonious rivalries that became life-threateningly dangerous on the track.
Although here too, Prost was statistically better than Senna, it was clear in most of races they competed that Senna was faster and a much better driver. His drive to win and be the fastest, costed him points. But being the fastest was his motto. That what made him so great.
They were also involved in two of the most controversial crashes which also decided championship wins (1989-Prost; 1990-Senna), both of which happened at Japenese Grand Prix and in both they crashed and were out of the race. (Although I still consider that the 1989 championship was Senna's.)



SENNA AMAZING F1 STATS:
Races attended162
Races won41
Pole positions65
Fastest Laps19
Points net610
Championships              3 (1988 1990 1991)

Though his career was short-lived, he still holds 3 world records. And had maintained several others for years, one of them being most pole positions which Schumacher broke in 2006 (currently record 68-schumacher).
Those 3 WR are: Youngest 3-time World Champion, Most Consecutive Wins, Most Start/Finish wins (Carrer).


Ayrton Senna is well known for his exceptional driving during wet conditions, winning almost every race in those conditions. But he wasn't always a rain-master.
The truth was that Senna was terrible in the rain when he was younger. He would win every competition or race in the dry, but when it rained, he was completely miserable at it. Completely fed up with his results in the rain, Ayrton would sit by his local karting circuit, just waiting for it to rain. He'd spend hours in the wet, often coming home drenched and soaking wet. While every other driver sought shelter in the wet, Ayrton was the first to get out there and drive.

Senna's one of the best race (though he didnot win) was infact in wet conditions, in his early F1 years, at Monaco Grand Prix. Ayrton qualified 13th on the grid, but made swift progress through the field. By lap 19 he was in second place, and was hunting down the leader Prost, making 5 secs (gap) every lap.
And on lap 32 Prost slowed as he approached the start/finish line and Senna passed him. However, the red flag came out and the race was stopped due to the worsening conditions. And he came in 2nd. Nevertheless, that drive at Monaco had impressed a lot of people.

He also took a memorable first race victory in dreadful wet weather conditions, similar to the one metioned above. He would win by over a minute from the second placed Michele Alboreto in the Ferrari and lapped everyone up to 3rd place. In fact he was so dominant that day that he recorded his first grand slam as well - he won from pole, led every lap, and set fastest lap of the race.

Thus, the title rain master was born.

Another one of his famous victories was his first Brazillian Grand Prix win. Where his gearbox jammed, and he had to drive almost half of the race stuck at 6th gear. This sheer determination and the desire to win is what made him a legend, unmatched champion.

He was a man who simply had so much self-belief that he could not fathom the idea of being beaten. It was the key to his greatness and his biggest flaw. Genius or thug? The debate will run and run. Not so the argument about his claim to be the greatest.

Ayrton Senna ~ "Being a racing driver means you are racing with other people. And if you no longer go for a gap that exists, you are no longer a racing driver because we are competing, competing to win. And the main motivation is to compete for victory; it's not to come 3rd, 4th, 5th or 6th. I race to win as long as I feel it's possible. Sometimes you get it wrong? Sure, it's impossible to get it right all the time. But I race designed to win, as long as I feel I'm doing it right."

His best years were at McLaren, which he left later for Williams. By 1992, F1 had changed a lot, with introduction of new designs, faster cars, better engines, and auto-leveling systems (active suspension), which Williams had until 1994...which also helped Prost take away the championship title from Senna in 1993, due to this unfair advantage.
Senna joined Williams team, when Prost called quits...and suspiciously the self-leveling systems were banned. And Senna for few months remained very unhappy with his car, and spun out many times.

Sadly, 1st May 1994 was his last race, where his car spun off track and hit the side benders, leading to his demise. (There was another crash which happened just a day earlier taking the life of Ronald Ratzenberger)


The legacy of Senna's death, is that safety standards in F1 and across numerous other formulae have improved dramatically. No driver has lost their life in F1 since Senna's death, and the sport has now enjoyed its longest ever period without a fatality.

But Senna’s greatest accomplishments may have come off the track. It only became clear after his untimely death that Senna had been donating millions of his own money to charities for children in his home country. Despite growing up in somewhat privileged circumstances, Senna recognized the hardships that many of his countrymen faced and was most concerned about kids and their future.

If you want to see him action, and know his complete story, I suggest you watch Senna, an amazing and emotionally gripping documentary.


Dedicate this post to you, one of your biggest fan, this is me saying you are the best, Senna:

                     

Harshal.

Monday, May 9, 2011

Aut viam invéniam aut Faciam


Aut viam invéniam aut Faciam which in Latin means: "either I will find a way or I will make one"…


                                                           Chapter-1

 
HONK…WAAM...The sound of train passing in the subway reaches his ear. He touches his locket looking at himself in the mirror. He hums a tune. THIS IS IT.


Few years back…

He is on the street buying groceries when he hears it in a distant. The tune so familiar. He follows it. So melodious, so sad yet beautiful. He is drawn to it like a moth to a flame.
 
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FLASHBACK

Sister:  “Mamma, can I have it? It sounds so good.”
Mother: “Next time. Right now we don’t have time.”
Sister: “But I want it.”
Brother: “You can’t have it...hahaha.”
Sister: “Why do you do this, make fun…I hate you.”

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It’s a music box. He hums along the tune. “I am taking it. How much?”
“That’s 20 bucks.”
It’s her birthday coming up, worth it.

He is heading to his room thinking about the winter break when he can head home and gift it to her. She would be thrilled. He watches people glued on the TV screen outside a café. Apparently there has been a train bombing in India. His phone rings. “Hello?” A voice explains. “Nooo…” Can’t be. “The ticket has been arranged. Please come home.” Home? There’s no home now. He is glued to the spot looks up to the screen. Fuck. Tears roll out. He drops the bag. (The tune comes out.) He looks down, sees the box and kicks it away. He runs into a dark alley thinking it’s a dream. “I'll wake up anytime.”

Back to the present...
 
TICK…TICK..TICK.

“Hopefully someone will notice this”, he thinks. “What I am about to do. Maybe they can figure it out.”
The tune runs again. It never leaves you. Never lets you rest. “No more running from now, I am free.”

KABOOM!!!
 

“Breaking News…Police are investigating a suicide bombing which happened at 1:15pm here in New York. There are more than 15 people dead and many injured. As you can see there is nothing left, however the police have found a locket which is suspected to have been worn by the suicide bomber.”

“This just in. The suicide bomber has been recognized as… Family was killed in a train bombing in India. Police are not sure as to what was motive behind this attack. Apparently he went missing since last year.”



                                                               Chapter-2 


Few months back…
 
HONK…WAAM... (Train goes past. He sits up near the railway track). He has nowhere to go, no money. This is life. Pfff… He takes out the cigarette. (CLICK…Click.) “Damn, lighter.” He sees a guy staring at him. “You got a problem there, man.” The person approaches. He explains how he would be given food, clothes, nice place to live almost every luxury if in turn he does what he’s asked to. “Without questions. You understand.” He nods. Right now he can hear only food. He gets in the car. “Oh dear…you need some new clothes right away.”
 
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FLASHBACK

Girl: “You never listen…I hate you.”
Boy: “Hahaha”
Girl: “That’s my locket I got it from the market as my b-day gift.”
Boy: “And now it’s mine.”
Girl: “Why do you do this…don’t you love me.” Tears fall down the cheek.
Boy: “Hahaha…cry baby.”

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He misses her so much. She tried to call but he left his phone...threw it away that day.
Tears roll out. “I couldn't even say I love you to her...”
“Who you taking to kid?” “Strange, he talks to himself”, say the guy with the gun.
“Boss brings all the whackos here…”

 
 
                                                       Chapter-3
 
Few hours back…
 
TICK…TICK…TICK.

“The plan has been set. You know your part, right?” He nods. “You are doing us all proud. Allah will set your pains free. You will be accepted by him and there will be no fear.” “Go with Rahim, he will drop you at your target.”
 
He closes his eyes as he walks past the security room towards the subway station. “If anything goes wrong, I'll still do it.”

(Crowd talking)
 
“This is where we part. Allah be with you.”

He approaches the stop...stands there waiting for the train.

Little Girl: “Wow, you are so tall. Mamma I wanna be so tall.”

The train door open, he steps in, heart pounding. He sits and starts his prayers. He has his hands on the phone. The number he has to ring is imprinted in his brain.

“Wow, so nice locket. Can I see it?” He opens his eyes. It’s the same girl. Idiot girl stay away.
“I wanna have it. Can I atleast touch it?” She reaches out.
“Hey back off…stupid girl.” He says.
Tears flow out. Those tears something so familiar about them.
“What did I do…I hate you.
Mommm...”

WAMM!! WAAM!!  A train goes past. He looks at the watch but can’t seem to focus. He hears laughter in a distant. His own laughter. It comes back to him. The little girl reminded him of someone…someone very close. He hears the laughter again. He thought the memories had left him. The pain, the fear. The girl now with her mother, eyes red. He sees those tears. They haunted him so much.

The train stops. Doors open.
“I can’t do this”. He gets out. He has the security personnel card to get out without being noticed.
“I can come clean. I haven’t taken anything.”
(exits outside)

BOOM!!! BOOM!

Shriek everywhere. Something happened. This is bad. Phone rings.

“You didn’t do what you were told.”
“I couldn’t…I don’t want to.”
“It’s okay…we had a backup plan.”
“What?”. His eyes contract, he looks around. There’s smoke coming from the subway station.
“Rahim is going to pick you up”. ”Stay there. Hide somewhere.”
The phone hangs up. He looks around. “What backup? What did he mean?”

He hears it in distant…the sound of the ambulance siren. “ Let’s get out of here. Someone just bombed the subway train.” He hears the person talking to his wife.
The train…the girl…gone! "Those bunch of assholes". He runs away raging with anger.


                                                               Chapter-4

 
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FLASHBACK

Girl: “You know this locket is my lucky charm. I wanna give it to you.”
Boy: “why?”
Girl: “You are going to a new country. You should wear it. It will protect you.”
Boy: “what about you?”
Girl: “Just take it. A reminder. Just don’t forget me.” (tears fall)
Boy(tearful): “ I have to go now. I’ll be late for the flight.”
Girl:”I love you.”  

She waves. He doesn’t look back, just runs. He can’t look back.

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Same corridor. He knows it. The red door.
212-555-7824. He dials on his phone.
 
"Hey I thought the boss said Rahim was going to bring you in."
BEEP.

"Hey...can't go in. He's busy. Just sit down, I'll go talk to him."
BEEP.
 
As the door open, he bursts in.
"What the....?" "Are you crazy?"
Images pop infront of him...The little girl...The crying face at the airport. Their faces blur. Somehow it seems as if they are smiling. He grabs the locket. "Please forgive me..."
BEEP...
 

KABOOM!!!
 
                                                                    Epilogue
 
"Breaking News...The suicide bombing that happened today, Police report says that those 15 killed in the bombing were related to Al-Queda and were planning a major attack at the Pentagon. They were also responsible for the subway bombing that happened earlier today. Police say that a major catastrophe has been averted all thanks to the suicide bomber. Police have yet to figure out the motive behind this attack…”


The tune plays out.

 
“At my signal, unleash hell...”



This is a short story written by me. I hope you liked it. I have the tune too. Listen to it. I find it quite beautiful.


Harshal Singh.


Here's the tune: 


(if u don't see it visit [  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o_SChDmSedM  ]  )